As a human, my once free-flowing river of awareness is producing unexpected ripples of perception causing me to constantly make adjustments to my sense of self. I feel entangled in long ribbons of thinking that crisscross my imperturbable innerness to form the sound I bring forth as a voice and the manifestation I present as a personality. I have to work at quieting these ribbons. They require discipline, they are merely a tool. They must be told they are not me. I must be the one to tell them.
Yes, I am standing on Earth, playing at being human. I study and use definitions in order for other humans to find me in the shadows of their own ribbons of thought. I make words to reveal myself. I have words made for me to discern others. I remember distinctly not having the need to do this, which may be why I comment on having to do so now. My commenting seems irrelevant to others, and this has kept me from considering how important it is for me to say this to myself. Some words cannot reach other ears or hearts. I’ve learned that doesn’t matter at all. My ears, my heart, need to be told what wonders they can know. I’m noticing that other humans too often don’t tell themselves what matters to them uniquely. They wait for someone else to do all the telling. This explains a lot. I find being human a very bittersweet affair.
The thing is, there is a Divinity in each of us—an equal portion of the Infinite Light. It must be recognized to shine. And it is meant to be whispered in the Silence of Self where the Invisible holds us in Forever. It is how I pray—I find Forever in my feeling self. There, life on Earth becomes meaningful, more sweet than bitter. It is such an exciting opportunity to let the Infinite Light shine in this material dream. The two of them create the most extraordinary means for growth and newness. I think the secret is: we came to play. So, let’s do that and not worry about the ribbons of unhappy thoughts others are creating with. Our own has all the power we need to be in a safe world and not trip over words. Our own knowing is all we need.