Believe in secret

Go to the quiet place, dear One.  Go to the sweetest thought that mind can give and see that it is yours for all time, capable of filling all space.  It is yours, this beauty that keeps knocking at your heart saying, can you see me?  Can you believe how close I am and how dear you are to me?  We are one, dear One.  No thought of otherness separates us, even when you have thoughts of otherness. 

 I am what you want from life and what you want to be giving to life; your life, your canvas of celebration.  I am the Song in your heart that wants to be heard.  You want to hear it but you have been afraid to believe in its reality.  You have been afraid to believe in your reality in relation to it.

 The thing you want, the thing dearest to your heart has come to look to you like that thing of frivolous unimportance.  How the world around howls its view of what is important.  And you have come to be a bit confused and you have withdrawn into yourself but not into yourself enough.  You have gone into the shadow place and you have not found what makes worlds come alive.  You have been afraid to believe what you know–being so full of what the world believes.  But, you know what you want and you are asking for it–and in the asking it is becoming evident–even as you watch the world around you spew the same old meaninglessness.

The thing you want is not anything you can speak of to others.  It is the thing to tell yourself.  It is the truth that comes from the Self within that has waited to have you hear.  It waits with gentle hands resting on your brow, stroking away all the forgotten-ness that has become too real, too painful to endure.

 You want to believe in what you no longer feel. You have waited for someone else to help you feel.  But you need no one.  You need no one.  Nothing has gone away from you.  The Real is still real.  It is here, breathing its sweet breath, living from its brave heart and filling all space before you and all around you with confirmation of its Presence.  Believe in secret.  Believe your secret life and rest deeply on its strength and purpose for you.

What Matters To Me

I know there is a quiet place deep within the hidden part of me.  It is a tender corner that holds all of the Universe within it.  It takes up no room and knows nothing of space or time.  It is the sweet invisible that is the very source of my most treasured sense of self.  It is the loving arms upholding me and breathing into me the wonders that make my heart thrill.

I have thought that I could never feel You again, Secret One of My True Self.  I have looked for You where You are not: in other people, in the stories they tell of their lives.  I read and read, I looked and looked, and waited for scraps of proof that You could be found in this Earthly world.  I’ve waited to hear from others what they found, if they found, and how well they lived with You.  But the more I looked, the more I sought, the more the emptiness grew within me.  How could we speak to one another, You and I?  Oh, how I’ve missed You.  I have been so good about learning the language that is spoken here, the one rendering soft thoughts into hard concepts turned into bits of sound that must be strung just so—only to be found inadequate and misunderstood.

I’ve found it hard to turn myself away from the world of “other people” and be still with You.  I’ve wanted to bring them with me, or thought it must be so that I should bring them with me and have them share in the goodness.  To go somewhere without them was arrogant on my part, and even more it was selfish and made me a cold, self-centered person.  To turn my back on this world and to go to You, alone, seems selfish.  And yet …   

… You are the Life of all of us, aren’t you?  You are the order of all being, the very thing that keeps the seam from ripping, the place that never changes but grows to unfold and reveal the tenderest new thing full with possibilities and delight in being expressed.  You are the very reason the snow comes to remind us of the hush of stillness that is Your Voice.

Oh, how I miss You. Oh, how I miss my True Self. Oh, how I want to speak “our” silent language again.  Oh how I want to make, You, most real of all.  Show me how.  I’m listening.

Why Not See It This Way?

I sit here, with back-lit keys that look like a heavenly night sky filled with Stars.  How lovely is this moment engaged with a technology that willingly dances to my imagination.  We are both acknowledging something deep, and Something deep sends Its love and warmth and jolliness to us, and we are both grateful for the happy moment that has come to be.  There is such a sense of well-being in the “shared” moment at hand. 

Yes, it is pure and simple Joy my keyboard and I are dancing to, together.  Who says we are not?

Your Room

Beloved—
You have cried many tears in the pondering of your loss of Me.  I am ever ready to dry them and bring you back to the Nursery where the soft petals of kindness fill the room with their fragrance. It is Your room. It is where you live and breathe the awareness of being.  You remain in this gentle place and will never leave it; even while you dream of not being here.

There is only goodness that resides in you.  It is a goodness that gives life, and the desire to express it.  You are inspired from a Well of goodness that overflows with each moment of your being.  There is nothing to stop or prevent this inner activity that is the nature of yourself being expressed, because it is the nature of Reality.

I stand here where you stand.  I am that which you stand upon.  I am that which you have to give to yourself.  In the giving to yourself, you fill a world that becomes a World.

Uncloud Yourself

Unclouded is your sky.  It is not shrouded in gloom or threatened by darkness where you cannot see Life in all its glory as yourself, as all you are.

You waveringly begin to regain the optimism that you believe you lost.  It is believed by all of you that mistakes are hard to undo; that they come to stay.  That is not so, Beloved.  I tell you only the good comes to stay.  It is your bedrock.  It is the truth.

Let it be that the thing troubling you is on its way out.  Let Me do it for you.

All I ask, is your trust.  Only that.